tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61771642011-04-22T01:44:24.733+08:00gagging... speakproblems about giving countenance to my thoughts. reasons for frustrationsiarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comBlogger371100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1149859562895773992006-06-09T20:40:00.000+08:002006-06-09T21:26:02.936+08:00late may to early june.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1138622850167374042006-01-30T20:05:00.000+08:002006-01-30T20:07:30.166+08:00dream car.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1138622618741468702006-01-30T19:28:00.000+08:002006-01-30T20:03:38.790+08:00New Year Blog.I've realized now that when some thing is yours, it will be yours no matter how hard one tries to shake it off. The reverse is is also true and ... Also more prevalent on my side of the world.The world has got the tedency to make you feel worse off when you lose. cringeSongs of lost love to bring up the heart achenew year festive films on the television with lovey dovey themes that evokes some iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1137909745863906982006-01-22T13:26:00.000+08:002006-01-22T14:02:25.896+08:00it has been 7.. no.. 9 months in to the national service and i must say things have been looking up for me. 3 x nights out.friday off + long week end. book in at 2300. in a typical week. And these are not provisions to offset the rigourous training. NO, training has been rather relaxed and enjoyable. No more night dives.. setting up of sea boats in the wee hours in the mornings when the early iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1121515831719128632005-07-16T19:59:00.000+08:002005-07-16T20:10:31.723+08:00I'm a broken man. Rather shakened by long periods of separation from the fairer(and more beautiful) sex. It has not hurt so much before. Couples, hand in hand and clearly enjoying each other's company. They share a umbrella in the Singaporean summer storm, beating their way shelter to shelter. The sights i see while being seemingly oblivious, despite my efforts remain quite a source of regret. iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1121515132708222502005-07-16T19:43:00.000+08:002005-07-16T19:58:52.746+08:00Once again, back from quite an absence. The socio-political landscape has redefined blogs. The online literature has gained more clout as the readership grew. Damn.. i'm afraid now that someone's reading. i'd better keep my living identity in wraps, lock and safe.. not a word in the archives to suggest I wrote these. Or i may be guilty killing people with a lethal dose of spastism. i think iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1114922108937925282005-05-01T12:27:00.000+08:002005-05-01T12:35:08.936+08:00have come to a time where its is said to be a turning point in one's life. your surroundings change, your friends are new, you take orders from people other than yourself and you have short hair. i now live life in the army. the whole new take on life is refreshing and rather healthy... in a well-fed, care free kind of way.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1111849075858881892005-03-26T22:21:00.000+08:002005-03-26T23:11:39.390+08:00i've been invited back to the online community it seems with open arms, or rather, a broadER bandwidth. i guess it has come timely enough, in a time when every day is a ground hog day. it has been enjoyable in a free wandering spirit. imagine touring your own country. yes i mean touring in the context of a tourist who spends time exploring. i have become a guru in killing time, and parting with iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1101818191572989212004-11-30T20:25:00.000+08:002004-11-30T20:36:31.573+08:00cannot recognise blogspot anymore. ha, shows how long i have not been online. web landscape has changed, so has my life. my world has been sucked in to a portal in to another dimension. this is no understatement, but it does not mean that life is much more enjoyable. it begins to bore me. the surreal new world begins to bore me. i don't have the whole schedule of holidays ahead of me like i like iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1091866751988945642004-08-07T16:09:00.000+08:002004-08-07T16:19:11.990+08:00haven't been here for some time now. i know. i know because the place is different now. what happened was that i click "back" when the page loaded; thought it was a consequence of some bad link.
read my old blogs to get the feeling of writing again. i was alittle ashamed of what i have written , though not due to any explicit information but the person i project outwards. this guy who wrote the iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1082779427265552942004-04-24T12:03:00.000+08:002004-04-24T12:07:57.030+08:00i'm sad. very sad. school exerts a certain pressure on students. the fault does not come from a specific location. it is from every where. from the tutors to the students. somethimes, so much is required of you. for those who are not masochists, and thus i my shoes.. ( wait .. only masochist would want to be in my shoes. )
it is rather painful. no, sleeping during lecture is not pain ful. trying iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1081170914760991672004-04-05T21:15:00.000+08:002004-04-05T21:18:58.763+08:00i venture into this ancient ruin, dilapilated, neglected.... and started the dreamy, uncontrolled, ritual; i continued with my musings.
i'm not here by choice.
it is rather sad. i have to add something to my underused flobber something box.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1079507548052815602004-03-17T15:12:00.000+08:002004-03-17T15:15:45.653+08:00slack slack slack ....
must ..not.... be tempted by... the darkside.
infact i try to be so optimistic that i believe that if i work hard enough on anything, i would have a positive result.
work work work.
surf net and slack.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1079403132376773692004-03-16T10:12:00.000+08:002004-03-16T10:15:28.326+08:00the holidays.
however its is no sanctuary. there is so many creases to iron out in my life. first of all, studies wise, lots of catching up to do. my CTs are screwed up and this is the least i can do to make up for the poor performace. flipping my ten year series. religiously seek enlightenment from the school of math, physics and econs.
i have seen my results but have so far kept mum about itiarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1078405358978365742004-03-04T21:02:00.000+08:002004-03-04T21:07:06.326+08:00exams ARE OVER!! breathe. ... exhale exhale..
take a breather. the world is my oyster. come back to blogging. watching movies. no more mugging.
i put my sufferings behind me. i may fail my physics paper today but i'm not allowing it to arrest my mind. the mind is back to the holiday mode. i feel like a man re born. you know when you have a brush your teeth, perform a clean shave then splashing iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1077356426524904292004-02-21T17:40:00.000+08:002004-02-21T17:44:54.873+08:00saturday.
the week just passed.... just can't imagine how times fly while having hell. test after test after test, with some tutorials and lots of study in between. it one of those times when i'm really tired of school. except that now i'm more mature and really trying to like school. the physicals in education is also not cutting the slack to compensate with the torture in the lecture theatres. iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1076767210621222142004-02-14T22:00:00.000+08:002004-02-14T22:02:44.856+08:00another week.. not. this is valentine week. once again, i feel like a total sod. i spent my day with other sods from cj. firstly the chess club people. we went to AJC had had a friendly with the sods from AJC. then joined two other bachelors, yu lung and peter. i was really ready for a day of pool and solace from similarly sad men. as it turned out, we studied in rocky masters. then to tanglin iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1076408897079251632004-02-10T18:28:00.000+08:002004-02-10T18:30:45.170+08:00its a bloody sin when i miss out entering stuff in this diary. many facets of my life were neglected, hence. whatever interesting happened yesterday for instance cannot be recalled.
does this blogger domain have some kind of log? if someone tries to hack or deface the domain i'll hunt him down and kick his ass like arnold schezenagger( its it the right spelling?) in total recall.
yesterday. theiarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1075805273313423502004-02-03T18:47:00.000+08:002004-02-03T18:51:07.186+08:00My cousins, aged 5,7 were outside having a ball of a time with their new found friend in the neighbourhood. Another child and his sister from the opposite house. Then there was a commotion, my baby cousin, the little boy aged 5, stormed into the house with upset tones, he puffed ' I don't want to play with you any more because you never say sorry.'
he was followed by this Caucasian boy, as far iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1075802908292650022004-02-03T18:08:00.000+08:002004-02-03T18:10:47.000+08:00my grand father smiled at me today. he did so when i came in from the back door, he kept looking at me with this expression that he was reminded of something of the distant past. there was no dialogue but i could detect so much reminescence....
iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1075706909188454872004-02-02T15:28:00.000+08:002004-02-02T15:30:46.106+08:00pondered bout my love life. man it was wonderful in the early days... i had my lego and lego had me. we could remain inseparable for hours. we could play mind games; trying to figure out a particular new position. we hurt ourselves once in a while, the yellow blocks refuse to let go and i had to pry. sometimes with my nails, sometimes with a screw driver.
nowsadays, its different. school work iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1075704234058228152004-02-02T14:43:00.000+08:002004-02-02T14:47:13.170+08:00was neubronner's birthday on 31 jan. rather packed with relatives and friends. but the guy still had time for all of us. realise it is no mean feat considering u have 8 or so uncles and aunties, a few cousins and friends from secondary school, cjc, nyjc, and bunk mates from tekong. fortunately, there was a big cake and lots of food and drinks to go around. i thought the party was fly. (fly... iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1074915435594483422004-01-24T11:37:00.000+08:002004-01-24T11:39:19.950+08:00new year. then this is the first entry in the year of the monkey. my prediction is true; the interest is running out. it goes one day in between entries then two, now, 8 days. ouch. got more important things to do that i don't have time to reflect on the last few days. its VERY important (i discover myself nodding before the moniter) .....
oh yeh, watched "the last samurai" on the big screen iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1074314417972645142004-01-17T12:40:00.000+08:002004-01-17T12:42:12.576+08:00really cannot enter much now that the schedule is soooo tight. more hyperbole.. i was soooo shock and awed.
so forgive me.
wait.. who the **** reads what i write anyway.? i capitalise on that. hey! even the note book where people keep diaries costs some money. heheheh, blogging IS free.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1074314131251463842004-01-17T12:35:00.000+08:002004-01-17T12:37:25.920+08:00Looked at the little stuff that were entered.. Realized so much of it is silly. hahahahahh.
its the school term now. I started afresh but was hurled towards earth on the next day. The tempo was breath taking . Not in awe but the way you feel after the 5.1 km run; when you're in oxygen deficit.
the class is happy to be reunited. But one of us would leave school as of yesterday. Friday. Reason?iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1073290266356556182004-01-05T16:11:00.000+08:002004-01-05T16:11:25.500+08:00it seems i'll never be as sentimental again.
i'll never fall for another.
when would i be myself again.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1073290086482378692004-01-05T16:08:00.000+08:002004-01-05T16:08:25.660+08:00i take longer and longer breaks. i can't explain it. i pass the day feeling dazed. i sleep half the day, dreaming really true to life dreams. some are really dramatic, its alot more scary when it could happen. the element of possibility IS unnerving.
the new year resolution is resolute. its meant to be. the As are my top piority and the rest of the promises to myself is to induce such condition iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1072527403534570322003-12-27T20:16:00.000+08:002003-12-27T20:17:00.220+08:00hpmm.. Holiday season. Been taking a break from the internet world. To those who cannot part from the computer for the festive season, get a life. Haha, I have given myself full cover from criticism.
third day of Christmas hasn't been a fantastic day for me. The fact is, I was not enjoying Christmas. I was trying to impress the girl of my dreams when she impressed me. She allowed me to give her iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1072079272354904902003-12-22T15:47:00.000+08:002003-12-22T15:57:26.590+08:00Got a nice digital camera. Nice handsome one. A dimage F200 model from minolta. Took the day figuring the applications. Took some photos... Deleted some. The pictures turned out fine provided that the settings were well chosen. The dark finishing give it a tough look however the auto zoom lens looks precariously fragile.(they all do. Always have confidence in the SLR ones.) but what the hell. I iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1071805260271400452003-12-19T11:41:00.000+08:002003-12-19T11:41:14.493+08:00Seen some good poems published online on blogspot.... There couldn't be any other better way to convey thoughts in a subtle tone and keep people guessing. So here are some of mine. Forgive my clumsy attempt.
so clouded it is tonight.
heavy over the sky
opaque against the lights
unmoving yet floating
black is really white
rays form the body
light that really shows
not what you really are
cold toiarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1071801741331401282003-12-19T10:42:00.000+08:002003-12-19T10:42:35.523+08:00Doing the blog in the morning. Nothing really happened yet. The windows media player is on shuffle mode. Its a Chinese song that is playing... stirred some feeling I thought were under control or dormant for that matter. It was called "wen rou" by wu yue tian. Replayed it twice. Even tried to remember the lyrics. Never realised my potential for sentimentality.
iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1071732597868722142003-12-18T15:29:00.000+08:002003-12-18T15:32:03.890+08:00fry houllier.iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1071732333251879772003-12-18T15:25:00.000+08:002003-12-18T15:25:47.443+08:00man.. not really into this activity of bloging any more. wasn't at home to start with. chalet for two days. and the day IS inevitably more interesting. i have this bunch of %$@* ex class mates that seemed to get closer together every after the graduation from st.gabs. guess it doesn't happen to every class. oh yes..(%&$#) is aform of endearment i cannot use ordinary words to express. some of the iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1071541636020196912003-12-16T10:27:00.000+08:002003-12-16T10:27:29.603+08:00need to find time to go for the renuion. we promised to come together. it is not too late. the shalet lasts for three days. thats one day down.. two more to go. got to go... got to run..iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1071541172479815992003-12-16T10:19:00.000+08:002003-12-16T10:22:16.966+08:0012,13,14,15 of this month were spent in thailand, bangkok. the city was big to say the least. the concrete spans from horizon to horizon and the kingdom seemed to be tinted gold. it was a wonderful holidaying destination. i had to cherish every minute.. and every cent(every baht); the stuff there are priced at ridiculus prices.. so i bagged my fill.
i spent 50 sing for the air ticket, hotel stayiarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1071046698828051912003-12-09T16:21:00.000+08:002003-12-16T10:23:07.780+08:00tuesday.
now what happened today? nothing really, if i meant the day. basically, its visiting me old friend. realised that poly has not changed him a bit. still a techie. thats why he never changed. he hangs around with the same people, tweaks with some cracking software and plays the newly released games and has no worries bout the system requirements. boy am i envious. the performance of my iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6177164.post-1070790268866021572003-12-07T17:44:00.000+08:002003-12-07T17:47:35.373+08:00ooooh, first started this diary. Did not feel as excited as I have imagined. haiz.
hey.. What does albuerque stand for?
a few things on my mind now. First, I've got to buy shoes; a pair of white leather, flat soled, laced, lawn bowling ones. Imagine how ridiculously rare it is. Second is to get it by the 12th. No, the 11th. Taking the plane on the 12th.
how strange it is to think of trivia iarkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04065157671543545927noreply@blogger.com